Can't Sleep

I'm so tired of being tired! I've developed a problem with sleeping. Nasty little habit! I go thru spurts where I don't have any problem falling asleep and then there are times like now that I'm exhausted, but toss and turn when I'm in bed. I actually have a prescription for Ambien, but by the time I realize I can't sleep I'm afraid to take it because I don't want to be wiped out in the morning. I know, I know....I'm screwed either way!

I would love to be like my dear hubby, who before his head hits the pillow he's snoring. He could also sleep thru a tornado. He's such a brat!

One of the issues that I can't let go of right now is the fact that Spring Break is just two weeks away and I've got to lose about 75 pounds. Think I can do it?!? We are headed to Florida and will be visiting my identical twin sister who is literally half my size. Then after a few days at K's house, we will be heading on to the beach to meet several other families of which I will have the distinct honor of being the only Mom that is overweight and wearing a one piece tent...I mean bathing suit.

How the "he double l" can I have an identical twin who is half my size? Somehow she got all the skinny genes and I got all the fat ones. It is so unfair. I love my sister, please don't get the wrong idea. It's just so stinkin' hard when I get introduced as her twin. I know what people are thinking. I've even had a few older men actually say it out loud...to my face...."You two are TWINS?!...sure is a big size difference in the two of you!" Yeah, thanks for pointing that out...Mr. Obvious.

For normal people when you go on vacation, you don't run into many people you know. It's a time when you can relax and not worry about who is seeing you in a bathing suit because, hey you'll never see these people again, right? Well, we are not normal. There will be at least 11 families that we know from our hometown staying at the same place. They are wonderful people and we've known most of them for years. It's just that they've also known me when I was 75 pounds lighter and I can't stand the fact that I've gained most of the weight I lost back. I've always struggled with my weight. About four years ago, I lost 75 pounds and felt fantastic. I swore I would never gain it back. And now here I am, back to the disgusting old me. Lord, please help me get thru Spring Break. I want to enjoy my kids and the time I'll have with my husband and family and friends. I don't want to be miserable and uncomfortable the whole time I'm there.

OK, Enough of that!

Here is a conversation I had with Khoa today on the way home from pre-K.

Me: Did you have a good day at school? How was your runny nose?
Khoa: I picked my nose (big smile).
Me: Khoa, don't do that. You'll get in trouble and it's yucky!
Khoa: No I won't Mommy, I got under the table so no one could see me.

BOYS!!!!


I think I'm going to like having MY own blog. I don't know that I'll ever really have anything interesting to say, but I might surprise you now and then. You'll just have to check in from time to time and decide for yourself.